Thursday, May 28, 2009

Pictures

Annie on her 3rd birthday showing off her swimsuit.


Annie getting her hair done.

Rebecca getting ready for Annie's birthday party.

Annie getting ready for church on Easter Sunday.



Rebecca getting her hair done before church.

Isn't she sweet?

Rebecca not looking at the camera.

Rebecca and her silly faces.


Rebecca and Annie posing with Gabe.


Rebecca and Annie checking out their loot.

Playing around.

Rebecca happy about getting some candy.

Annie, obviously, really wanting to get that egg open.


Annie and I decorating eggs.

Rebecca and I decorating eggs.

Oh, and we had a litter of Vizsla puppies. Eight to be exact.

Aren't they cute?


You know you want one.
The puppies are 3 weeks old today. I will post more recent pictures later. They are so cute. Copper had 3 girls and 5 boys. Can my life be a little crazier?

Thursday, May 7, 2009

The Story

So, I thought I would explain my last post that I wrote in such haste to help clarify my mind and not to stress over what was going on. It has taken a while to find out exactly what is going on. My mom has breast cancer. A very aggressive breast cancer. I cannot even wrap my mind around how my mom is feeling. I feel sick to my stomach every time I think about it, so I am sure that it is ten times worse for my mom. We have no family history on my moms side of cancer. I just don't understand.

My parents went in and spoke with the doctor/surgeon today to go over their options. The doctors said they want to do 6 months of chemotherapy before they do a lumpectomy. Then they want to do radiation, then another round of chemo. That was the plan that the doctors want to do, but that was not the only option. I am not sure I heard any other options when my dad was explaining this to me or if he didn't even say the other option. They will decide soon.

My mom is scheduled to retire next year. She is a kindergarten teacher. The best one I might add and there are a lot of people that would agree with me and they are no relation. My mom has been with me through two c-sections and gallbladder surgery and I would like to be there to help my mom and dad through this time. I want to help cook, clean, and just be there for moral support. Today, my mom can't even speak to me because she is so upset. Which doesn't make me feel to good. I want to be there for my mom like she been there for me throughout my entire life. It is so hard for me to live so far from them during this time.

So, you ask why don't I go out there to visit? Well, I would love to go and can go, but have been encouraged not to come. Which is heart breaking to say the least. I am already "out of the loop" with my family because I live to far away, but now this is a major ordeal and I want to help, but should I go if my parents think I should stay home?

I am asking all my readers to pray for my mom and dad. Just because my mom is physically going through this my dad needs prayers to stay strong on her behalf. I can't imagine what they are thinking. I need prayer warriors to pray hard for a full recovery. I know my moms process will not be an easy journey, but I pray that it will be a successful one. I pray for strength for them both. I pray that they make the right decisions for treatments. I pray for the doctors to perform God's miracle on my mom. I pray that God places a healing hand on my mom. I pray for a wonderful outcome. I pray for stronger faith while going through this difficult time.

Just pray.....

Friday, May 1, 2009

Moments

You know those moments in life where some thing, good or bad, happens and you remember it for the rest of your life. You know exactly what you were doing, how old you were, the happiness or disappointment you felt. You know what I am talking about.

Well, I had one of those moments last night. It was not a happy moment, but a very sad and devastating blow. I don't want to go into details right now on what happened, but my life will never be the same.

I can't seem to stop crying over the news I received. My mind won't accept the devastating blow and won't let me move on and absorb what happened.

I know I did not provide much information, but I can't at the moment because I don't know much. I just needed to express some feelings because if I don't I am going to explode.